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Beetle by greenleo94, literature

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Beetle

I am a beetle trapped between w p i a n n d e o s w suffocating glass and body f o l d i n g The shuttering, s h u d d e r ing — then finally still.

Fungi by greenleo94, literature

It Never Quite Leaves by greenleo94, literature

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It Never Quite Leaves

Fatigue rubs like velcro hooks, roughing up the dura, and I am s i n k i n g into the wet cement of this feeling, chains binding my wrists. I can't move

Fields of Tender Grass by greenleo94, literature

Dependency (TW) by greenleo94, literature

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Dependency (TW)

The day your faith was shaken, I stole silver beads from your breast and sold them for an easy high. 25 minutes later, the creaking metal of the abandoned warehouse serenaded me as I fever-dreamed about the way freckles dance on your face. Then the (e)motion halted, the force of you shattered. The dancing, swaying beat in my brain decomposed. Yesterday I was clean, & yesterday we saw fireflies, their gossamer wings brushing our faces and lulling us into the heat of summer. Now the heat of the day is the icy chill of death, you filing a police report and flinching at the light outside — the day still dreams in color though your wor

Zion Lost by greenleo94, literature

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Zion Lost

I loved you ten percent less than perfectly, as if I could bamboozle you into believing the fruit of our loins would make you a mother in Zion. But the children we bore wanted two completely different things — the freedom of sin, and the exaltation of God. Their exoskeletons mocked the seraphim, and followed fallen angels. The betrayal meant bloody feathers, salt in the wound, and screams my heart couldn’t bear. Spurned, I fell as well, drinking whiskey from silver cups that cured my immortality. Somewhere, God laughs at love lost. Somewhere, a herald delivers the nicest thing someone ever said to her: a love letter from an old

In The Recesses of my Mind by greenleo94, literature

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In The Recesses of my Mind

i. I met my subconscious in a glorious redwood forest, deep in the bowels of the earth in a round room. He came to me, faceless and stark, silver body nimble as he sat across from me and stared. The bed in the middle of the room remained barren. ii. The second time was nearly death. Lacking fear, my heart slowed its cadence, lungs following suit. In awe, I sank into myself, my body growing too big for my spirit. The gasp awoke me, sternum rising with the breath. iii. I don’t remember my childhood, even though He does. The sterling form lurks, squirreling away bits of the past. My body stands a testament to the trials its faced.

Au by greenleo94, literature

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Au

This beautiful brain bursting with intensity and it’s tendency to think in full color images doesn’t know how to live in a world that’s broken — The lights are too loud, you see. They scream and tear into retinas with savage teeth, electricity racing along the optic nerves. Shifting crowds, fabrics and textures swirling in a technicolor mob, flit between calamity and insanity. The slightest touch can kindle an unbridled fury, turning grey matter into a disordered disarray. The simple brushing back of bangs, a stroke between the shoulder blades, can unravel neurons. But despite the shrills that pierce, despite how

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Beetle by greenleo94, literature

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Beetle

I am a beetle trapped between w p i a n n d e o s w suffocating glass and body f o l d i n g The shuttering, s h u d d e r ing — then finally still.

Sparrows by greenleo94, literature

Fungi by greenleo94, literature

It Never Quite Leaves by greenleo94, literature

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It Never Quite Leaves

Fatigue rubs like velcro hooks, roughing up the dura, and I am s i n k i n g into the wet cement of this feeling, chains binding my wrists. I can't move

Fields of Tender Grass by greenleo94, literature

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Zion Lost by greenleo94, literature

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Zion Lost

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In The Recesses of my Mind

The Magpie by greenleo94, literature

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The Magpie

Birds keep crashing into my living room window, but you, Magpie, always see the glass. Cunning and clever, feathers iridescent in the pale morning light, you cry aloud, a haunting ululation. It echoes across tree bark, across fields of plowed earth, mourning the fallen, those bereft of life. You craft funeral wreaths from sweetgrass, laying them at the feet of stiffened talons.

Au by greenleo94, literature

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Au

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May 26, 2020

If you haven't been keeping up with Daily Deviations lately, here's what you've missed! “The tumbley cadence to this poem serves its message very well.” - @JessaMar (suggested by @Rose-Em) “Interesting poem in which the author describes how to be drawn in into the stories and living their own characters.” - @Malintra-Shadowmoon (suggested by @JustACapharnaum) “For such a short piece I find this really evokes emotion in me - sadness, loss, worry but also love - especially knowing a deep abiding love developed over more than 50 years of marriage, something many people will never experience.” - @BGai, Suggester (featured by @Zara-Arletis) “I love the dream-like imagery in this, and the sense of absent love.” - @SingingFlames “This story offers enough detail to engage the reader without overwhelming - which is a marker of both great flash fiction and great science fiction.” - @JessaMar “I love how frank and unusually sweet it is. It's unlike other love poems I've read, and

Fly, Skyborn, my love by LipsterLeo, literature

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Fly, Skyborn, my love

Fly, Skyborn, My Love Ghostly hoof beats thundered across the strand and reverberated off black basalt cliff walls. They haunted Asta by night in her dreams, and rumbled through her soul as she stood lost in a thirteen-year-old girl’s reverie. An expanse of ebony beach stretched before her. The crystal sea sparkled as lazy waves lapped against the shore. Sunlight reflected off the water and danced across the cliff face like prancing ponies. The sand butted against a tall, basalt wall that wrapped around the strand in the shape of a crescent moon. The cliff ended in a promontory topped by a stone lighthouse, like the horn of a black

and April said, by miserabel, literature

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and April said,

I will bring you spring but it will cost you. I will be the teeth at your neck when you raise your face towards the sun, flower dearest; there will be no safety in my warmth. I will bring you death and you will bow your head and say thank you, for those lessons learned. Bend your body, unfurl your tears for a pantheon of uncaring gods. True prayer means despair, true prayer wrenches at the soul. I will bring you time, will unfreeze you from the spot of shock that you're in; you will know fear, will taste it on your tongue, salty, crunchy, nauseating (you won't be able to swallow it). I will bring you something new, something old, will wrap it all up in gold; and you won't know what to do with any of it. You will be lost. That will be the beauty. I will bring you spring but it will cost you everything.

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The Genie in the Stop Sign

Vanessa fought off sleep as she drove home, counting the minutes until she could flop into her bed, with the promise of rest laying on top of her pillows. In fact, she could just picture it in front of her when she was jerked awake by a loud crack that sounded like it was right in front of her car. Oh shit, god, why? she sleepily thought, as she unbuckled herself and slid out for the car. Slowly she moved to the front of her car, finding a large dent in her Hyundai Elantra and a crooked signpost leaning against the front bumper. Vanessa moaned, gripping her wheat-colored hair. Her car was definitely totaled.

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ameliorate by greenleo94, literature

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ameliorate

there’s nothing left to hurt just wild moments tightly coiled muscles moving silently under half dead street lamps rubbing knuckles raw on bricks sanding down angles and bones to bloody violence and i want those precious cathartic moments the bending the stretching of skin your jaw cupped in my palm making you humble spine popping with a forgotten hunch from too many years spent squaring your shoulders i want my hands to be the embrocation easing the shock of implosion i want the distemper in your voice to finally become quiet

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Aug 20
United States
Deviant for 14 years
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My Bio

I’m a guy who loves to create art in all different forms mostly drawing, leather work, and writing. I’ve had interesting experiences that help inspire me to write and express myself. Art is a great way for me to connect with my emotions, thoughts, and passions so the best way to know me is through my work, particularly my poems.

Some fun things about me is that I am a trans guy and I have a service dog named Hubble! Complete science nerd and wannabe surgeon but unfortunate health issues kept me from completing my education. I’m a trauma survivor, adopted, practically a fish in water, and I only like blue M&M’s.

Favourite Movies

Zootopia, Jojo Rabbit, Seabiscuit, The Martian, uhhh too many

Favourite TV Shows

House, Grey's Anatomy, Dracula, Band of Brothers, most animal shows, anime

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Everclear, ABBA, Coldplay, Lizzo, The Everly Brothers, Paramour, Snowmine

Favourite Books

White Fang, Inheritance Cycle, Blood and Chocolate, Dragons of Pern, Terrier, Bloodhound, Mastiff

Favourite Writers

Anne McCaffery, Tamora Pierce, Amelia Atwater-Rhodes, Jack London, various poets

Favourite Games

ACI, ACII, AC: Brotherhood, Skyrim, board games, Dungeon Defenders

Favourite Gaming Platform

Xbox, PC

Tools of the Trade

computer

Other Interests

swimming, writing, rugby, reading, snowboarding, hiking, kayaking, camping, boys

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May 6, 2020

What is Exercise Intolerance?

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My next post in honor of Fibromyalgia Awareness Month will be about Exercise Intolerance. What is Exercise Intolerance? Exercise Intolerance is a term used to describe the worsening of symptoms after physical exertion. Many patients with FM will experience this as it is one of the major symptoms of the disorder. The worsening of symptoms could be as mild as general malaise, or as severe as a full blown flare up. What causes Exercise Intolerance? Unfortunately, Fibromyalgia is a condition not heavily researched. To this day, there are people in the medical community who simply don’t believe this condition exists. The exact cause of this is relatively unknown, but some studies suggest that that people with FM experience disturbances in peripheral micro circulation. Per the NIH: “The key point to note is that ischemia associated with a modest decline in tissue oxygen causes muscle fatigue. It has been shown that have been found low muscle levels of phosphates and abnormalities in

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May 6, 2020

How Did I Develop Fibromyalgia?

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In honor of Fibromyalgia Awareness Month, I’ll be telling the story of how I developed the condition. I used to be an intensely physical person. I’ve done 4 Ragnar Relay Races, used to work at a very physical job, etc. I was suffering from a lot of anxiety, though, so in the summer of 2016 I sought medication as a treatment. At this point, I had already tried things like SSRI’s, and they didn’t work for me. They put me on Propranolol, a beta blocker that lowers blood pressure. In small doses, propranolol can reduce the physical symptoms of anxiety. I tried it, and it worked amazingly! I was excited, and started taking it more regularly. One evening, I was sitting at home and this weird feeling hit me like a ton of bricks. I dissociated and became intensely suicidal out of literally nowhere. It was scary. We called the crisis line, and they urged us to go to the ER. They treated me like a psych patient, lied to me, and got me to sign away my right to refuse treatment. I was admitted

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May 6, 2020

Fibromyalgia Awareness Month

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In honor of Fibromyalgia Awareness Month, my first post will be about what, exactly, this condition is. Fibromyalgia (FM) is a condition that affects the Central Nervous System (CNS), which includes the brain and spinal cord. This makes FM a condition with a LOT of various symptoms, however, the two hallmarks of the condition are widespread pain and fatigue. Other symptoms include sleep disturbance, mood disturbances, numbness / tingling, headaches / migraines, painful menstrual cramps, problems with urination, and irritable bowel syndrome (IBS). There are many other symptoms that comprise this complex disorder due to it affecting the brain. Fibromyalgia is brought on by trauma, either physical or mental - Per the Mayo Clinic: “In some cases, fibromyalgia symptoms begin shortly after a person has experienced a mentally or physically traumatic event, such as a car wreck. People who have post-traumatic stress disorder appear to be more likely to develop fibromyalgia, so your doctor